Medical Update

So as some of you may know the MRI came back clean which in some cases may be a good thing but In our case we were hoping that they would find something so it would be a cure all but that would be too easy of a fix. So now we are pushing through I hopes that the vagal nerve stimulator will help to the extent that Shaun’s seizures can be controlled. The scary thing to me isn’t the surgery more than it is what if it doesn’t work this is our last hope of him ever having controlled seizures to the point that he can lead a perfectly normal life and perhaps even drive…. Heaven help us haha!  Honestly I don’t know if I could live with the fact if it didn’t work and he had his episodes more frequently, because when he has them I feel so alone. I can’t even carry on a conversation let alone ask him to help me with Naomi. Don’t get me wrong I would push on and find a way to accept it but man would it be hard.  What I try to keep in mind is this is Shaun’s trial and maybe even mine but in the big picture this is something so small and who knows what the lord is preparing us for it could be something great. The Lord doesn’t put anything in our lives to harm us but it is for our own good. Ask me that in the middle of a trial and I will deny that this could be at all good for me but deep down I know it is true. I believe everything happens for a reason and I know that I have been blessed with the most amazing husband and daughter. I have faith that the lord will provide a way to help Shaun be the best husband and father that he was meant to be, that is what keeps me pushing through this hard time. Thank you everyone for your love and support please keep the prayers coming.