Getaway to Venice

So this week I decided I had enough and I wanted to get away from life and just have a mini retreat so my husband and I dropped off Naomi at grandmas and used our gift certificate to Destinations inn and stayed in the Venice room it was awesome.

 It was so nice to be able to just relax and not worry about anything for once. It was a nice get away however I did learn something about myself from this getaway... I love my little girl more than anything and she has become a major part of my life. Don’t get me wrong I knew I love her and that she is a big part of me but I never expected the feeling I felt when she wasn’t with me overnight. I had fun but I really did miss her. After I left her I felt like something was missing you know that feeling when you forget to put your ring on or whatever it is and you just feel naked without it. She is a huge part of my life and I can’t imagine my life without her. I have days where I am worn out and a she wants to do is play or throw a fit cause she wants to play with something she can’t have, but I would never trade her for the world. Being a mother is the most rewarding and challenging thing in the world but I am so grateful to have the opportunity to experience motherhood.

  

 I mean who wouldn’t want to wake up to this face… 

 I am grateful to be a wife and mother to the sweetest angel. Even though I have my days that I want to just hide under the bed I know that God has given me this opportunity because he loves me and trusts me and that is the best feeling in the word! Thanks for all the support<3

Count Your blessings

So i have decided the best medicine for feeling down is to count your blessings so that is what i am going to do!

1. I have a loveing husband who works hard to support his family and go to school.
2. I have the best daughter I could ask for who is all smiles and brightens my day.( She honestly is an angel sent to our family)
3.  I am a member of The church of jesus christ of latter day saints
4. we have a nice apartment to live in.
5. we have food in our cupbords and fridge
6. Shaun has a job
7. i have loving extended family
8. I have the scriptures, prayer, and phrophets to listen to for guidance in this crazy world
9. Its almost spring
10. we have modern medicine to help with the health problems in our family
11. music
12. a car to drive
13. being blessed with the gift to be great with children
14. being a mom
15. haveing a colledge eduation
16. technology
17. Living in the united states no matter how crazy it is getting it is still the choice land
18. sunshine
19. the ability to love 
20. temples

These are the blessings i am grateful for to name a few <3

Introduction

So as a lot of you might have noticed I have not been myself lately and that is very true. For the first time in my life I have felt depressed, and to be honest it’s the scariest feeling ever! I am not sure what has brought it on but I know I want to get out of it. Lately I have not been happy with who I am. I feel like I don’t measure up in any aspect in my life. Spiritually I feel disconnected and I hate that, physically i feel worn out and don't feel attractive any more, and emotionally well hahah lets not go there. I have started to realize the reality of my PCOS and the fact that I need to change my life around to be healthy again, not to mention if I want to have any more children. I feel like I don’t have any best friends in my life any more. I mean don’t get me wrong I know your husband and family is your main priority but sometimes I just want to go out with my girlfriends. People act like they are my friends but in the long run I feel left out and I never get to go out with friends. so to make a long story short without venting too much I have made this blog to help me become the woman I want to be and achieve the life I want to have. ultimately I want to have the best relationship with god I can which means a lot more action on my part, I want to be the best wife and mother I can be, and become the person I know god has intended me to be. If you are willing to support me through this journey then feel free to read my blog, if not then don’t. I don’t want any negative feedback i have enough negative in my life Thanks!