So again a lot has happened and I haven't updated
so here is my massively long post about my life since the last time. Shaun has
improved with his device yay, but we still have some more appointments to keep
upping the levels of his device so we are hoping it will only get better from
here. We don't go back until April so we still have a little while to see how
its working at the level it is currently at. This has been a huge blessing to
us, and we hope it will continue to show improvements so Shaun can lead a more
normal lifestyle.
Naomi is growing up so fast and she is always
smiling, being silly, or laughing. She loves her grandpa and grandma to pieces
although most days she favors grandpa haha. it has been good living here with
them for a while so that she can get to know them better. I still can’t believe
she will be two in June... time flies too quick. She loves going to work with
mommy and playing with all the kids. I am still loving my job, but sometimes I
come home and crash because working with twelve 2 year olds at a time can be a
lot of work.
We are finally in a place where we can get our own
place again I can’t wait. Though it is harder than it seems. Finding a decent
place within our price range is a little tricky, but I have faith we will find
the right place if we keep looking.
So on a more serious
note.. ( NOTE to those mentioned please do not feel bad or be offended) Many of
you who keep up with my posts know that I went through a few months of
depression due to the lack of being able to get pregnant again and no I am
still not pregnant. I want to thank those of you who gave me courage and love
and helped me though this rough time. During that time almost all of my friends
became pregnant and every time it was a blow to my gut. Then my sister in law
announced she was expecting and I wanted to give up on everything it was the
last straw although that was my turnaround point as well. I hated feeling the
way and did and thinking the way I did. I didn't understand why everyone but me
was being blessed with another baby. I pleaded with the lord above that both my
sister in laws wouldn't be pregnant at the same time if I still wasn't pregnant
because it would be too much for me to handle. Months went by and I got out of
my depression I started trusting and relying more on the lord for strength and
comfort and enjoying the moments with my sweet daughter more. This is where my
life lesson gets inserted. Remember that plea I mentioned before well it was
not granted my other sister in law announced she is expecting and I am still
not. I thought back on that day I prayed earnestly and thought okay this must
be funny to him because he is trying to prove me wrong or something , but then
I remembered he would never be cruel he loves me unconditionally and knows my
situation. So I must be stronger than I think I am and I feel like I already am
I didn't even cry when she told me and I actually felt happy for her so that's
a plus... I still feel like the odd one out and probably will for a while but I
know that the lord will bless me with another bundle of love when my time is
come. My life lesson never tempt the lord by saying you’re not strong enough
hhahah; no really he knows how much we can handle and how much we need to
handle to grow so trust in him that no matter what happens it will be for your
good.
I am so grateful for my loving husband that listens to me complain and cry
and all that girly stuff yet he loves me anyway. I am also grateful for the
knowledge of heavenly father and his eternal plan. I don't know where I would
be without it.
Thank you all for your love and support until next time,
Love,
Andrae Michelle
