So as some of you may know the MRI came back clean which in
some cases may be a good thing but In our case we were hoping that they would
find something so it would be a cure all but that would be too easy of a fix.
So now we are pushing through I hopes that the vagal nerve stimulator will help
to the extent that Shaun’s seizures can be controlled. The scary thing to me isn’t
the surgery more than it is what if it doesn’t work this is our last hope of
him ever having controlled seizures to the point that he can lead a perfectly
normal life and perhaps even drive…. Heaven help us haha! Honestly I don’t know if I could live with
the fact if it didn’t work and he had his episodes more frequently, because
when he has them I feel so alone. I can’t even carry on a conversation let alone
ask him to help me with Naomi. Don’t get me wrong I would push on and find a
way to accept it but man would it be hard.
What I try to keep in mind is this is Shaun’s trial and maybe even mine
but in the big picture this is something so small and who knows what the lord
is preparing us for it could be something great. The Lord doesn’t put anything
in our lives to harm us but it is for our own good. Ask me that in the middle
of a trial and I will deny that this could be at all good for me but deep down I
know it is true. I believe everything happens for a reason and I know that I have
been blessed with the most amazing husband and daughter. I have faith that the lord
will provide a way to help Shaun be the best husband and father that he was
meant to be, that is what keeps me pushing through this hard time. Thank you
everyone for your love and support please keep the prayers coming.
