So as a lot of you might have noticed I have not been myself
lately and that is very true. For the first time in my life I have felt
depressed, and to be honest it’s the scariest feeling ever! I am not sure what
has brought it on but I know I want to get out of it. Lately I have not been
happy with who I am. I feel like I don’t measure up in any aspect in my
life. Spiritually I feel disconnected and I hate that, physically i feel worn
out and don't feel attractive any more, and emotionally well hahah lets not go
there. I have started to realize the reality of my PCOS and the fact that I
need to change my life around to be healthy again, not to mention if I want to
have any more children. I feel like I don’t have any best friends in my life
any more. I mean don’t get me wrong I know your husband and family is your main
priority but sometimes I just want to go out with my girlfriends. People act
like they are my friends but in the long run I feel left out and I never get to
go out with friends. so to make a long story short without venting too much I
have made this blog to help me become the woman I want to be and achieve the
life I want to have. ultimately I want to have the best relationship with god I
can which means a lot more action on my part, I want to be the best wife and
mother I can be, and become the person I know god has intended me to be. If you
are willing to support me through this journey then feel free to read my blog,
if not then don’t. I don’t want any negative feedback i have enough negative in
my life Thanks!
What a great idea! I think that we all feel this way at some time in our lives. We can either grow from it (which is what it sounds like you are doing) or wallow it, get comfortable, and stay miserable! Love you and all the courage and bravery that you have!
ReplyDeleteIt is true that we all have different trials in our lives, however I think that it is safe to say that we all struggle with feeling like we are not the best mother, wife, friend, etc. I love that you are acting upon your feelings and creating a blog that can inspire other women that go through this too. You are an amazing person, Andrae. I have always looked up to you and the way that you handle your daughter. You are a great mom. I am here for you and would absolutely LOVE to go out sometime and get some ice cream or something. We need that time away sometimes, I know.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your words